This year i have attended 2 wedding dinner.. There are still 2 more upcoming ones, that makes up 4...

The other day i had a meeting with my friends and one of them whom we have not met for the longest time told us, she will ROM in 2 weeks time. That is in 07.08.09. Have you realized? the date came up to 789.... the date that my lazy bum and me got together is actually 25.02.05.. And one of my friend commented that, we actually has a easy date to remember.. removing the zeros, it is 2525... For 3 years, i have not realized it until my friend told me.. How amazing.. :)

I just felt that i am getting old, because many people are planning to get married, in like, next year, or the year after next.. I was talking to my bestie just today, and we suddenly realized that we are old, because as we grow older the responsibility is getting bigger. My bestie and me has the same mentality that we are not ready for marriage, eve though our other halves are ready. And they are ready at any moment, just for us to say "I do" or "Yes", so that they will have the green light...

Apparently, bestie and me have the same mindset that we must move out and not live with our other halves family.. We are trying reduce conflicts, not that we are being selfish.. I am lucky that lazy bum"s mum and dad does not mind us moving out, but for bestie she is not so lucky.. Her bf expect that bestie will move in and stay with them.. And that is one of her reason that she is not ready to say "I do".. For me.. My career just started, and i just am scared about all these..  In addition, all those customary, ROM etc is just far too troublesome.. Upon, knowing all those stuff that i have to prepare and do.. I just made me even more not keen to get married..

oh... ya.. Lazy bum and me is fine now.. After, we had communicated.. He is still as firm as in the past that this relationship will work out.. He just firmly believe.. I think i"m just like an emotional baggage... Sometimes, i will explode and get very emotional.. Sometimes, i felt really bad that he has to take all these craps from me, yet he always seems so willing.. Sometimes, i just get very worried that one day he will just get tired of all these craps from me though..

Think, now is not the time for me to get married, but perhaps 2 or 3 years later.. i think the possibility of 3 years later or more will be higher.. haha.. I"m just so scared to make the decision of someone"s wifey..

Arrgg.. have to go.. i wanna watch the boys before flowers, although i had finished watching it but it is a nice drama.. Do catch it.. btw the songs are nice too.. =P bb..

Loosing faith in something can be very fearful, because it  may be is a decision to give up something. You don't know what will happen after you give up and if you do not give up? This is what i'm expriencing. Loosing the faith in him. I'm starting to feel, we can only treasure today, perhaps tomorrow i may leave him.

As soon as i started working, i realized things are different for us. Nothing is the same as yesterday, as everyday passed. I have lost the patience to ask him how is his days, i have gotten tired of telling him things and not getting much reactions. Sometimes, i just want to be a listeners. I believe in everyone, there are times that things are this way as well, or i had gotten tired of this relationship. Maybe things has gotten too routine. Things i expect him to do, perhaps he did some, but there are some, he just tend to forget. And i'm tired of telling and saying.

When i was in the car, he said he was asleep while driving. Nothing is new, so even when i was looking at the road condition for him, will things be changed? Will he change his ways on sleeping while driving. NO. So what's the point right. There are things i totally give up and no longer pin any hopes on it.

And i was thinking, if this is way that after we got married will be. Then i rather feek that i'll stay single, and we'll be friends. As it is...

It's been nearly a year or it is not, that i had updated here. Ok, still with the same company as mentioned, things move siwftly.. as well as time. I don't know why, i just get tired easily. Feeling sleepy even at the moment i just woke up in the morining.. So tired and sleepy..

hmm.. no idea what to talk about..

Ok,.. i think i'm not getting married any time soon, because there are a lot of other factors to consider.. Such as, money, housing... And the most important is that, the idea of being someone's wife.. I have no confident in doing so, it just weigh on me.. Perhaps, i still prefer to be my parent's precious daughter who are well taken care of.. I mean now i'm with my parents i have the luxury of sleep till noon on the weekends.. Not needing me to clean up the house or do household chores, financially, i can spend on the things that i want etc..

Is this what they called marriage blues... I'm just not prepared to be married, be called someones' wife.. To me it seems like a burden. If that particular day has to arrived... i don't know if i will ever be a run away bride like those in drama.. haha..

I think it is still not the time for me to get married... I'm comfortable at where i am at... I know i have to leave my comfort zone someday... least, let me stay in here for another 3 years? or until i'm bored enough and wanted to get married soon... and led a different lifestyle... 

It's has been long since my update. Alright.. eh.. i shall start will august then.
I started looking for a job on first to second week of August, then thereafter i got a job and started on it on 18 Sep, that's where my training officially started. So till now i'm 3 week with that company.

On last friday, 12 Sep i finally got a hold of my university degree certificate, it was a grand affair. My parents was there, felt very touched that after all the hardwork, i finally got a hold of my cert. 

Recently , i have been thinking a lot, was it depression?? haa.. i dunno, but my brain just could not stop thinking about things, especially during the weekends, things just got worst. Weekend suppose to be my enjoyable day, but i couldn't afford to rest. As my work is not totally done. Haiz..

Getting a job does not ends my worry somehow..

Yeah.. I'm back from Taipei... The trip was fun, although there are a lot of aunties and uncles, there are also 2 young girls like me.. haha.. They are nice people as well la. The most important thing is that all the people in that group are all super nice people. They will help one another. The uncles are all very comical and they are jokers lo.. Really enjoyed the trip very much.

Ya.. forgot to mentioned that while taking SQ back it was night time already, through the windows i can see many stars when the lights are off. It's so pretty and fantastic, and i did capture few moments of the sun setting. I can say... it's so pretty. At that point, i told myself the world is so fascinating. The nature is so amazing, things changes according to the atmosphere, according to the animals, how the earth turns, how the clouds and rains are formed, how the stars appears, etc...

Anyway, i had fun for 6 days already. Time to get serious and find a job.

I will post the photos of Mac Ritchie trip, Taiwan trip.. and and.. Ya... Ya... Singapore Flyer's Trip... Yup, i took the Singapore Flyer's trip FOC, cos my father's friend have the ticket for it. So in total we saved $114 for the three of us. Actually, except for the view there's nothing much to see at night, just those beautiful formation of the lights. I think the day part should be better, cos we can see the beauty of the natural landscape and such... 

Today i'm just lazy to upload those photos now, so I will only post some photos that look unique and not all. Cos i have about 500 photos taken for the trip alone.. hee..

gtg.. *yawn* nights.................

I'm happy... 

i'm happy because i have ended my part time job.. 

I'm happy because i will get my new spectacles soon. 

I'm happy because about just 2 weeks time i will be in Taipei..  

Lastly, I'm happy that i have nothing to do...

Yeah...

hee.. 

tata~~   

 Just last week, 15 Apr after having dinner @ Waruku casual dinning we went for a walk along Esplanade. And saw Singapore flyer from far. So we decided to proceed over there and have a look. On our way there, along the road there are a bunch of traffic police escorting a VIP in a vehicle. As we proceed further and nearer to the place we saw even more traffic police as well as many people. Before our dinner we heard of sound of firework. At that point, i was wondering was it Singapore flyer. haha.. And i really hit the button. haha.. Anyway, the place is v pretty, at the ground level in the middle of the place they actually built an artificial forest with waterfall etc. I took some picture, you will get to see those picture i took later on. 

In the complex, they have few retail shops along 2 level. Among the shops, there are 2 interesting shop. One of it is Kenko wellness spa or some foot reflexology store. In that store, they offered fish spa. The other shop offers experiences of handling an air plane, but for that exprience u have to pay $150 or more for it. It's very expensive man, but nonetheless i know it's something guai ka has interest on. It's really too expensive for the experience. In addition, that day when i went there, there are a lot of tourist and locals. They where queuing up to begin their experience with singapore flyer. And so the queue wasa line along the railing at level 2. So can u imagine how many people there are. Ya.. that night was very exciting because there are clowns, i mean those entertainers la.. Those having snakes carried on their neck, clowns, photographer and a lot more. Outside of the complex, they have a small mini concert, and songs were sang by.. eh.. i dunno who are they.. haha.. It was very happening over there la..

Here are the photo...

Ya.. One more thing, i recommend people who will be boarding onto Singapore Flyer not to wear skirt or dress. If you have to try no to stand near the glass panel, as the people below could see your undies. I mean people who stand in the middle of the complex of the artificial forest, when they look up, they can see everything clearly.

Just have a look below:

 

I had a nice dinner and exprience that day... hee.. =)

Oh gosh......

I just can't wait for.....

my part time job to end in 4 days time...
and
my taiwan trip......

I'm getting sick of the job scope of my part time job. I just got v v v v sick la.. For no reason, maybe due to the monthly thing... I'm just so looking forward for my taipei trip lo.. wahaha...

can go there eat, spend, play.. Yeah... In about........... 22 days.. i can fly to taipei...

I dunno why i look forward to taipei trip so much, i was not very looking forward to Hongkong trip... but taipei trip.. i'm very excited lo.. maybe it's the first time i'm going somewhere far without my parents...

Hope i have an enjoyable trip.. yeah yeah.. counting, counting......

Alright... to start with... 

Guai ka is ORD-ing soon.. 
So happy for him, he'll always #@#$@$ over this NS life, but it's over... haha..  That day my father asked me when guai ka is starting his degree lesson and when he is finishing his NS. And i told him in 2 weeks time, my father said it was fast. And he said it just felt like he when to tekong yesterday and now he is ord-ing in 2 weeks time, which i think so too. His ord date is 6th May, after that 10 days later we will be on SQ to taiwan. haha.. ~~happy

Next.... I'm ending my part time job after next week
Finally, i'm done with my part time job. This week is a tedious week i do not need to work long hours everyday, still has to work everyday, with no off day at all. It's so boring for me lo.. work work work.. and you will see those irritating, demanding, no common sense, inpatient and stupid customers. haha.. so happy.. i no longer have any relation to that company... and and... no longer have to meet supid people.. haha.. so excited lo...

more of it... i can sit on a new car!!
Guai ka's parent bought a new car.. and guessed what.... his parents bought a sports car.. He wanted a GTR, but his father dun like it, but his father liked EVO X.. I was thinking, how can it be, his father nv liked this kind of car. In turned, he like that Evo X... So got new car again... Yeah.. i can sit and drive evo for once.. haha...

eh eh... and.. my father sponsoring me for taiwan trip expenses..
Alright, the trip is free, the meals attached to the trip is free, but the my own expenses are not!! So my father that day said that he want to sponsor me.. haha... Happy lo.. Got all free things.. yeah..

Lastly.... i've decide to make new specs..
Yeah, since goverment is giving growth dividends, not exactly a lump sum, still i got the first instalment of the first sum. I can make a new spec, since guai ka is making a new spec in early may too.. hee.. yeah... i'm sort of sick of the design of my current spec. Time to make new changes.. haha...

think that's all~~~~~

Today had a tiring day.. Worked 10 hours.. Tedious, is the word i would say, but no chioce, helping my colleague, how can i bear to let a pregnant lady work by herself right?? Perhaps she is blessed.. haha.. She is, i would say that at least. At the age of 24, going to be a mother.. Anyway, the important thing is........ I'M going to TAIWAN, FOC, FREE OF CHARGE. At least for the accomodation and food is paid.. haha..

It was offered by Guai Ka's family business' supplier, as an incentive thingy. Can't really remembered. And i think none of his family member can go.. So we go lo.. And it was almost at the right timing that i'm not working in my current part time job and not working yet. Anyway, was surprised when Guai Ka came to fetch me and he asked me to read these few sheet of paper when i just board onto the car. I was like, huh.. what rubbish is this.. haha.. and he said free trip to Taiwan.. haha... 

Felt so blessed lo.. Thank God for it. He must have know that i want to go for a trip after graduated and before start working for a full time job, but don't have so much money. So He blessed me a trip.. haha.. Was planning for Bangkok trip, haha.. no need already la.. Now got free trip to taiwan. Actually, my wish for this year is after i graduate, i can either go to Hong Kong or Taiwan, it would be good if i can go to both place. haha.. And it came true before 2008 ends. I can say, God is good.. He blessed me 2 places... So happy. Will give all thanks to Him. He is truly good, and truly my Heavenly Father.. haha..

Sooo.... Since going to Taiwan, i asked my bro to give me a supplementary card, to be brought to Taiwan in case i need $$$$.. haha.. lalala.... Really!! I felt blessed with this life i'm having. What i wished for has came true, what more can i ask for?? hee.. i think i'm getting complacent these days.. I think some day when i'm really free have to come up a list of goals, and work towards it. 

Taiwan, taiwan, taiwan, taiwan... Yeah....

And you know what?? We are going to taiwan and coming back in SQ lo.. Not those budget airline, at those budgeted terminal. This time is boarding plane by terminal 3 lo.. haha... 

Ok.. to sit planes of Singapore Airline to other country is one of my wishes.. I was telling Guai Ka one month ago.. When will he be treating me to sit in SQ to other country.. And my wish came true and it can be considered as him treating me to board SQ, cos it is from him lo. Wow, at one go, i realised 3 of what i wished for came true. I thought it is going to take very long to come true. Now i can only feel very blessed, must be Him la. What more can i say.. After all the hardwork.. After hearing this news, i'm very happy already.. haha..

V v v v tired already la.. going to sleep le.. bb..

 Alright... Now ring has been settled, more or less.. Next is location and when to ROM.. Haizz... I just realised that next year's CNY falls on 26th Jan.. At first, i thought i can arrange our ROM to be one month before our anniversary date.. Now cannot already.. Cos if it were to be on 25th Jan, it is on the eve of CNY lo, who can come..?? Even if it were 2 months before our anniversary, it is Christmas lo.. Restaurant will be busy on either of the date.. So now a bit headache lo.. Either early January or late December already liao.. I really dunno how lo.. Cos my friend told me.. If we can, it is better to held our wedding this year, as in RAT year la.. Although it is not customary la..

Cos a lot this year's animal horoscope prediction says that, this is a good year for us as OX to get married lo.. I mean i'm not being superstitious, but still no harm in following what it says, right..?? Maybe it will bring us some fortune, whether in money, health, job etc... Even if it brings us nothing.. Nvm also la..

Today i just asked guai ka, where to held our ROM... Peony Jade or Gardenasia.. These are the two ideal location.. Peony jade has good food review as well as good review of customer service.. While Gardenasia will have nice ambience.. Meaning it would be fully outdoor, with flowers, grass.. Very near to nature la.. But the review given where good as well... So guai ka suggest Peony Jade, cos of the good food... -.-" haha... One more thing he mentioned, Peony Jade is at Clarke Quay, while Gardenasia at Kranji, so Peony Jade is more accessible for our friends lo..Quite true la, but i prefer Gardenasia more.. Muahaha.. Cos will have a more unique exprience and it is more memoriable mah.. haha.. So contradicting.. Want gardenasia still ask him choose.. If it were to be at Peony Jade, i'm ok la.. got good food leh.. And it is quite cheap, at the same time they decorate the solemnise table, pen, guest favor as well.. haha.. I think got invitation card also.. Cos i intend to take up the most expensive solemnise lunch package. hee.. Show u the place for solemnisation of Peony Jade and Gardenasia.

  
Above is Peong Jade's, left is the outdoor, right is the indoor.


This is for the Gardenasia.. V nice right..

Really no idea which one lo.. Both of them are very tempting.. Maybe i can email gardenasia and ask them about the pricing.. hee.. Or i can take gardenasia as second choice if we didn't manage to book Peony Jade, cos i heard from ppl at the forum that.. Sometime Peony Jade may not want to let us have it for ROM.. Rather they will only let others who want to hold their wedding dinner.. Cos can earn more.. haha.. I just like the theme above for Gardenasia lo.. Cos they got sunflower.. So nice.. Arrgg..

Our wedding band is done.. 

Suppose to collect it on 8th of March, San Ba Fu Nu Jie.. haha.. But before that date, Tian Po Jewellery staff called and ask us whether can collect it later, cause they are not done with it. Of course, we are not urgent la.. Cos we do things earlier mah.. So that we dun get too panicky... And i think the staff called guai ka on last friday, that the rings are done.

And soo...... Guai ka collected it on sat without telling me.. He did tried but i was moody and tired then, can't be bothered to talk to him... SooooOOOo... my fault for getting moody and tired and don't want to talk to him meh... Ya la.. Ya la.. My fault lo..

 A lot of ppl are curious on how the rings looked like.. And here..... I shall reveal it... but later la.. ok.. haha.. 

Ok.. as i said i wasn't aware... So he did a surprise.... He bought the top from OP that we saw went we were doing window shopping in Vivocity before i go for work, but after we had our lunch... So he bought it and gave me a surprise at night... He gave me the top to cover up for the collection of wedding band... then he kissed me.. and pushed the ring into my mouth.. Was shocked then.. Cos the collection slip was with me.. i put in on my tray la.. and didn't realised he took it.. (What if someone came into my room and collected it.. I won't even know.. haha.. Middleheaded me...)

ok.. but after we got the ring i was quite happy.. but for one thing.. My ring's diamond v small lo.. humph.. Only 0.04 carat hor... So small... HIs one is at least 0.1 carat lo.. ok.. Nvm.. I will get a 0.5 carat prposal ring.. wahahaha.. That is what he is going to compensate me.. After that 0.5 carat ring.. he still owe me another 1 carat ring.. whahaha.. I'm so greedy.. i know.. Who asked him to find a greedy gf..  haha.. ok.. below is the top..

 
The surprised top...

  
This is the box for the wedding band.


These are the wedding ring..


Another photo of these wedding band..

A month plus or two has past since i posted. During these 2 months, i had sort of accepted the fact of getting ROM. Not for any reason, but because it has to be done someday. Before CNY, guai ka brought me to Tian Po to buy wedding band. At that point i was neither excited nor happy. I am having an average normal mood, and when i saw the design i suddenly feel that all of them looks the same. In the end, i left the decision making of choosing the wedding band to him, cos i do not have any preferance or comment. So guai ka liked one of the ring design that is in yellow gold, as we are looking for a wedding band in yellow gold as well. 

Many people asked us why choose yellow gold, but to us is that, there are so many people wearing white gold and it's so common. So we took an slightly uncommon decision to wear yellow gold wedding band. In addition, yellow gold has higher value compared to white gold. Before choosing our wedding band, we were told that white gold will turn yellow, platinum will turn dull and grey. So both of the wedding band has to be polished when it happens. And when both of them are being polished, some portion of the ring will either will be tarnished or some of the element will come off. So, i thought for a while when choosing our wedding ring, guai ka wanted yellow gold cos of the value thingy. As for me, i was struggling between yellow gold, white gold and platinum, among those i disliked platinum the most. So platinum was out of the choice at the early stage of decision making. And because white gold turns yellow, i chose YELLOW gold.. haha.. So one thing is being striked off from the list. 

Now is left with deciding on location and date. Guai ka's parent and my parent has not met up yet. So the date maybe will be arranged by them. Another reason that my ROM will be held next year is because it has to be within this rat year. As my friend kept saying that, rat year is a good year for us, of zodiac cow to get married. I am not a very superstitious person, but since we have to ROM next year, perhaps we move it earlier. Instead of ROM on march, we might do it on january or february. So it is about one year of preparation, i hope we are having enough time. Guai ka asked me that day will 6k be enough for us to proceed onto our solemnisation. So i was like, wow.. so much?? Cos my intention is to invite immediate families and close friends. So guai ka's family + my family, will cover one table, then both of our friends 2 tables. Btw i forgot to say i intend to have sit down eating recept then to have buffet, cos i found one restaurant that is cheap and good. They even offer a private room, decoration, solemnisation table and wedding favour for our guest, which i think is a good deal. 

So now i am searching for other place for solemnisation, because i want the best.. haha.. Now i am still thinking of having indoor or outdoor, cos when i asked guai ka about wanting to have a indoor or outdoor solemnisation, he said outdoor, which i think it is more memorable la.... So i will be doing the emailing on the location and food to gardenasia in near june for outdoor ceremony or even seletar country club, but right now i will still continue in searching other location for outdoor solemnisation. In addition, we have to ask guai ka's family if it is ok to have a nice and cosy ceremony with just immediate family members and friends.. I think for my parent they should be fine. So now left with guai ka's paren already.

When i knew to hold a solemnisation ceremony has to be so troublesome, i feel like backing out, it has to include many planning and decision making, but now seems to feel better. Cos we are now forwarding towards our common goal!! things are just so amazing.. haha... 

ok.. finally finished sharing what i have been planning on my soon and yet not so soon solemnisation these few days.. 

bb.. gotta go.. going to bathe...

HOW!?!!! has been what i have been asking my friends... because i'm sort of being "forced" to ROM. What i mean by "forced" is because my parents want guai ka and me to ROM. Can u imagine.. it's so bo hua ok?? Why should i get legally married just because my parents want us to and not according to my freewill...!?! I mean it's bo hua is because i am not proposed, i'm sorry.. i request my guai ka to have a diamond ring that is big enough to see the diamond and a bouquet of flower + him knee down infront of me + that golden phrase for proposal "Will you marry me?". It's just those typical scene that most girls are having.. I want them too.. Cos i'm a normal female being. haha... Sound so typical but at least i'm proud if i can get those of which i want. 

The reason behind my parents action to asked us to ROM is because my father has the traditional mindset that girl will loose out especially that Guai ka and me has been together for near 3 years after the coming feb 25th only, but to my father he thinks that it's time for us to get married because we have been dating for so long. And to secure my happiness guai ka in future. They just don't understand that if we dun love each other anymore we can file for divorce anytime even after ROM. To rom is not an issue, but the issue lies in $$ and time. Both of us has yet to start working, though we are going out to work soon, but not that soon at the same time. I will get my degree soon, but guai ka has not, he will be ord-ed soon in may, and he intend to take a degree too. Both of us has not started saving for our big day either. aRRggggggg....

All of these just weighted me down because we aren't prepared. I just can't sleep every night because of all these issues, though i had accepted the fact that we have to ROM maybe next year. Have been troubled over when and where to ROM. I was thinking of holding it on 09 september 09 but it falls on a weekday. In additional, if getting a restaurant and such would be a hassle, if falls under our anniversary that is a weekday also, i'm afraid that guai ka's parents cannot make it cos they have business to take care of. Unless we looked for another day for our ROM meaning, one more day to remember.. Arrgggg... SO much to think. Another portion is the money... One simple solemnisation with merely 30 people's attendance would cost about $1500 with food. excluding wedding bands, gown, makeover, photography, his suit, pillow for wedding band. i would estimate it would easily come up to near 3k. In fact, i would rather to do the solemnisation and customary wedding together. Since my parents has poped the question i think i might just separate it. and wait for another 3 to 4 years before customary. haiz... can't my life be under my own control.. arrggg...

Talk to one of my bestie she feel the same way too, i'm still young for it, i think i will depend on the situation, to hold our solemnisation till next year is both our most secured decision, as both of us are not out working yet. We suddenly thought of after solemnisation is customary and for customary we have to find a house for ourself. and guai ka wants to stay near his parents. I dun object but i also prefer to stay near my parents mah.. haizz.. though, it's at serangoon my old hometown, i still feel my home is the most accessible place, where it is near central, there is MRT station, bus interchange and shopping center. haha.. so convenient. Arrggg... i think just let time pass first la... v tired... haizz..

Had a long day today... went to super imports night... and walk about... had a great time with guai ka and his friends.. tmr have to work again.. work work work.. y can't i just dun work and do nothing everyday... arrgggg....

At the super imports night, i get to see many mod cars, nicely decorated on the exterior. i would really give my hat off the contestant, the way they mod their car is really impressive and a lot of effort, of course money as well.. Whether performance or beautifying, they did a great job.. *applause to them* and they had a drifting show outside the expo.. The drifting show is nothing much to me, as they are doing almost the same thing, it was worst then what i saw when i was young with my father. those shows which i watched when i was young, was way more exciting cos there is race among the cars and they are travelling long then those they had today, but nevertheless, i dun mind sitting in their car and have the chance to have a feel of drifting.. haha.. must be super excited. i do hope for that chance.. And lastly...

i loves the CARS... 

haha... how i wish i will own my own car someday and mod it.. wahaha... i think my dream car has changed to Honda Civic type R.. haha... who says female drivers can't drive type R...?? humph.. so long we are rich enough to afford one. I'm someone after performance in the car, so...... of course i need a car that can ran fast enough to my expectation as well as the start up.. i want a car that has fast startup so that i do not waste petrol and time moving off.. And i want to declare... I LOVE MANUAL CARS!!! wahaha... cos all sports car are manual.. bleh.. i want to be those women that makes the guys jealous of... haha...

maybe after honda civic type R next would be my favourite brand AUDI.. haha.. *drool* it's a beauty... So motivated by the cars.. i will own it one day... must work hard for it... and make my mark for the cars and lead a well to do life. i do not need a life where there are a lot of wealth, so long there is slightly more then enough for me to spend and yet be able to save up and i will be more then happy.. hee...

okie... gotta zzZzzZZZ... tmr have to work.. WHOLE day.. arrggg..

 Finally, my exam has finished, but i'm worrying if i would pass, i just need to make a pass in my paper and i will be more then happy. Cos the last 2 paper i didn't have enough time to study for them. And it kind of worries me when some of the answers i realised that i wrote wrongly.. *faint* so have to wait for my result on the 30 nov.. really have to pray hard that i'll clear all.. i do not wish to repeat it algain.. gosh.. 

After exam, i have some activites going on, like... work, some shows to go for, and my oversea trip! haven been going for oversea trip for so long, this time round is.. HONGKONG, with my parents though. Just go there for walks etc la.. relax a while and face the music real soon if i happen to fail on my papers. that's very sad.. haiz.. gotta go..

oh gosh, my paper is tmr and yet i'm not having any mood now. And i'm having like 2 paper on wed, which makes up i have less then a day to study for one paper, as the other needa more time to prepare the notes as it is an open book thingy. My time is running out but i dun have to mood... study mood.. please come by and visit me.. arrgg...

i'm tired and sleepy....

Arrggg.. Exam is coming.. the first paper is next week... 25th... i'm so going to die.. Cos i dun have the mood for it yet,,, i'm not prepared... really so going to die already... someone.. please save me!! Guai ka had just ended his leave and he is going to take more leave in december... Anyway, her was at my house earlier on, as he is having afternoon shift today that's y he came in the morning... he feel so reluctant to leave my house but what to do.. that's life... 

And he gave me a shokcing decision last week, he says he wanted to help his father in the business.. From the day i knew him, he has no intention to take over his father's business at all, and all of sudden he told me he wanted to help out and take over the business. I was like, huh!!?! Why so sudden, and i thought through, perhaps i'm giving him stress.. I told him i wanted to be tai tai, but i know it is quite impossible especially in Singapore, so it means i'm kidding..  I think perhaps he has been taking it very seriously to consider this option, but i hope he can do what he always wanted and like to. Anyway, he still has half year to 2 years to do serious consideration on this decision. As he will be furthering his studies like me now.. Anyway, it's up to him la... So be it, taking over business or doing something that he liked, i just hope he will do some serious consideration and not regret over that decision of his.

Alrighty, i have to bathe and soon, try to study a bit for my exam, else i am really going to be dead.. I must graduate on time.. arrggg..